decade in February.
How do I feel about this?? I’m not quite sure yet, but I'm sure there's an F word somewhere LOL
I feel less anxious about it then when I turned 35. I think it’s because I have
started to find my true self. These last 2 years have been so much more than
just losing weight, although that was my initial reason for starting my journey.
Little did I know that changing my eating habits and beginning a physical
activity routine would change how I think of myself, and how I feel about
myself. It has become a spiritual, emotional and personal growth journey as
well. I believe all those aspects are more important now then the actual weight
loss, although I am super happy with those results as well.
When I began, all I would see when I looked in the mirror was a sad, fat, depressed,
mother of 3 that had put herself dead last on the list of life. I had no goals
other than to make it through the day. This brings pain to my heart, because I
can still relate to that pain, I remember how lonely I felt, how lost, how
disgusted with myself I was, how I felt that I would never be more or reach any
goals worth being proud of.
To be able to look in the mirror now and see a strong, confident, self-assured,
goal oriented, empathetic, loving, spiritual woman is new to me, and its
liberating and exactly what I needed even though I had no idea it would happen.
These are the reasons that I believe I am not afraid of turning 40, I reach this
milestone with a whole new outlook on life, with so many new opportunities at my
fingertips, without fear of trying to reach goals, with the knowledge of knowing
myself better than ever before, of not worrying what others think of me, because
I am comfortable in my own skin and know what I am capable of.
My goals are endless and they have become goals for my family as well, because the
more I better myself, the better I am as a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter,
a friend.
I had a dream of entering my 40’s in my best body ever, and right now this is my
best body ever, but I have inched down my list a little the last few weeks and
although I have maintained my weight, I feel soft around the edges and that’s
not what I want right now, I have 3 months to get it even better, so I promise
myself, to climb back up to the near top of that list, and give myself the right
to give it my all. I promise myself to eat cleaner, workout harder, lift heavier
and rock the crap out of the next 12 weeks. I would love to possibly do a photo
shoot at that time, who knows anything is possible and goals are meant to be
reached right??
I have many that stood by me and helped me grow to the woman I am at this moment,
I want to thank you and acknowledge you here.
First and foremost, my husband and my babies, for letting me take my time back and
letting me do what I need to do with endless support and encouragement.
My family, for learning to be more accepting of my eating habits, and getting
better at not always having a comment or rolling your eyes when I say I don’t want to eat something LOL.
My friend and coach Jenna for believing in me when I was at my worst and not giving
up on me when I would give up on myself. Xoxo
My friends and support life line, my GPS crew, you girls are the most amazing
friends ever, when I couldn’t see any results, probably because there weren’t
any, you always saw something to encourage me forward, I think you all were
lying to me, thank you, I love you to the moon and back.
My friend and coach Jenna for believing in me when I was at my worst and not giving
up on me when I would give up on myself. Xoxo
My best boo Jill, you always believed I could do it, and always support me not
matter how crazy I sound, you’re my CM ; )
Qiana, thank you for taking the time to know me and for all your support from beginning
to now, I can always count on you.
There are so many more of you that reach out to show me love on a daily basis, by
text, FB msg, showing up for my events, supporting me any way you can, you all
know who you are, and I love you and am a lucky woman to have you all in my
life.
So turning 40 is not scary, it’s a new chapter, a chapter of greatness, of reaching
new heights, doing new things, being the best me I can be, I dedicate the next
10 years to being the ones that will show me what I’m all about, be full of
positivity, health, love, prosperity, laughter, joy and fabulousness.
Bring on 40, I’m ready for you.
12 weeks to a tighter, leaner me starts now.
CHEERS.